Pre holiday preparation

So what happen next then? Well like I said it was my big four o soon! Florida conjures up sun, sea, tan, Disney world, salsa, bodies and bikinis!
So after the 1-2-1 sessions eventually ended and the weight that was lost inevitably came back on, what else? What we her work's issues, loneliness in lack of friends, insecurity in our relationship and the unattractiveness she felt (no matter how much I said I adore her) with her weight piling back on...life at home was no picnic!
With past failed relationships we both knew that this is never going to be easy and with my own workload issues, I have times where I just didn't give a damn and just have a go at her for stop feeling sorry for her and get her proverbial finger out and get on with it!! Selfish, yes but I am only a man.
I keep thinking why can't she go to the gym by herself rather then me harping on at her? Why can't she eat less and of the right food instead of the extra potions of sticky toffee pudding? This also affected non diet topic and I notice that I have becoming short tempered and impatience with her especially when shopping for clothes. Even belittling her when she said sometime in the wrong context. In all I felt like dog poo!
When we did eventually sort external help (yep the shrink) we manage to talk more rather then shouting or silence. As a northerner and ex forces, I have the mentality of "stop moaning and get on with it!” If it doesn't work then as long as you know you give it a damn good effort then good on you! I wanted her indoors to have the same attitude with this diet plan.
So since about 2 weeks ago, she is now going to the gym each day. Unfortunately she has slip back in the last 4 days absence of gym as one of her mate has just returned from sabbatical. This has peeved me off but what can I do? Frack all!
The Florida trip is in one week and she has started the Cambridge Diet again. Big sigh...watch this space for the next instalment.